the Hope of Survivors

My Hurt Soul by Samantha Beach

Unable to sleep my mind continues to race.
Look what you did to me at God’s Holy place.
You have abused me in a way that has brought unbearable pain.
With what you have done, how will I ever be the same?

A man of God you claimed to be…
Instead a wonderful disguise is all I am able to see!
I turned to you for HOPE when I considered ending my life.
You have made my pain worse; piercing my soul with a knife.

A man of God who now denies what he has done.
Faced with the consequences, has this sick game you now created now lost its fun?
Do you have any idea how God now views you?
Are you not fearful of what HE will do?

You can continue to deny this and believe what you want to say…
However, wouldn’t it be wise to reconsider,
because God knows the truth
and how will you explain it to Him on that day?


If you are a survivor of pastoral abuse, we would love to hear your story and possibly make it available on this web site for others to read and renew their hope. You can use a pseudonym if you choose and rest assured that all personal information will be kept private and strictly confidential. Please contact us.

Please note: We do not necessarily agree with or endorse all the information contained in the survivor’s stories. We do, however, feel they have some valuable information that could be useful to you in your recovery. It helps to know you’re not alone, that others have shared your pain and have healed, by the grace of God, in their own time and way.

The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart...Psalms 34:18